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Gratitude for a Sober Life

Gratitude For A Sober Life
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It’s getting towards the end of the year and I’m feeling pretty grateful for all that I have and for how far I’ve come. I feel like I’m getting myself back if that makes sense. There are so many big things, but here’s a little list of the small things that actually really matter…

Since being sober I have never…

• Hidden my recycling.

• Taken my recycling to the dump in between collections to avoid embarrassment of an overflowing box of glass.

• Snuck to the fridge to have a sneaky extra glass of wine, when I thought no-one would notice.

• Had to cover up a hangover or sore head, and actually allowed myself to be genuinely poorly.

• Wondered what I said or did the night before.

• Forgotten what I watched on TV the night before. (Okay I might still do this sometimes!)

• Known that during an argument or cross word it was me talking and not the wine.

• Not had to make extra trips to the shop because I might run out of wine.

• Felt like I had a constant need for something.

• Avoided going out because it was more ‘fun’ to stay at home with a few glasses of wine.

• Felt the need to argue with myself and convince myself that my behaviour was normal, when clearly it wasn’t.

• Worried excessively about my health. (With good cause).

• Felt completely out of control.

• Felt caught in a losing battle between myself and alcohol.



What do you think? Is there anything else would you add to this list?


As always, thank you for reading.

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