Gratitude for a Sober Life
18 December. 2019 • Category: Addiction | Mental Health | Family | Mindfulness | Anxiety | Authenticity | Sobriety
It’s getting towards the end of the year and I’m feeling pretty grateful for all that I have and for how far I’ve come. I feel like I’m getting myself back if that makes sense. There are so many big things, but here’s a little list of the small things that actually really matter…
Since being sober I have never…
• Hidden my recycling.
• Taken my recycling to the dump in between collections to avoid embarrassment of an overflowing box of glass.
• Snuck to the fridge to have a sneaky extra glass of wine, when I thought no-one would notice.
• Had to cover up a hangover or sore head, and actually allowed myself to be genuinely poorly.
• Wondered what I said or did the night before.
• Forgotten what I watched on TV the night before. (Okay I might still do this sometimes!)
• Known that during an argument or cross word it was me talking and not the wine.
• Not had to make extra trips to the shop because I might run out of wine.
• Felt like I had a constant need for something.
• Avoided going out because it was more ‘fun’ to stay at home with a few glasses of wine.
• Felt the need to argue with myself and convince myself that my behaviour was normal, when clearly it wasn’t.
• Worried excessively about my health. (With good cause).
• Felt completely out of control.
• Felt caught in a losing battle between myself and alcohol.
What do you think? Is there anything else would you add to this list?
As always, thank you for reading.