My Not So Secret Diary


ThinkingI don’t get much time to myself. That isn’t a complaint, it’s just the way things are, and I don’t mind, although of course, it is nice sometimes just to get a little bit of quiet.

The thing is… when it’s quiet I start to think, and when I think I start to remember.

The other morning for instance, I was driving home from the school run and it was a rare moment of quiet. I normally go to work from school, but not on a Friday. That’s the one day of the week where I come home to work on everything else I do. School is nearer to work, so I have a half an hour drive back across the moor. It’s beautiful and open and of course as I mentioned, quiet. Which I like, except my mind wanders.

While I know that our experiences shape us and make us the people we are, there are things I don’t want to remember and things I’d prefer not to worry about. Like anyone, I can’t change it. I can move forward, and that’s what I try to do most of the time. It would be so easy to drown out the things I’d rather not think about, but then, it wouldn’t get me anywhere, they’d still be there in the back of my mind. Once I might have thought wine would fix my worries, but I know now that it won’t. Even when it’s hard I face these things head on now, and I honestly think I’m better off for it.

It’s so easy to be hard on ourselves, but I’m trying not to be. I often try to remind myself that I wouldn’t talk to someone else the way I talk to myself, but it can be easier said than done. Just remember if you’re having a hard time, to be kind to yourself, things have a habit of working out for the best in the long run.

I hope you all have a lovely day.

Claire x

Book Reviews

book photoOkay, being honest, I love writing, but whenever I put anything out, whether it’s a blog post, an article or a book, I get nervous, so reading things like this post from the lovely @cat_on_a_leaf is just brilliant. Thank you so much! I’m glad you enjoyed it!

#Repost from @cat_on_a_leaf

Finished reading @soberme_claire’s new book last week and loved it! It’s very easy to read, nice short chapters, and offers a huge range of information that I wished I’d had in the early days. Here’s some of my fave chapters (and pics):
- ch 5 but I’m ok aren’t I? 100% identified with so much of that in my early days
-ch 7 challenges - this is a short one but so lovely to see some advice and acknowledgement of sober challenges.
- ch 9 what you eat is super important - this was really helpful! Sure some of it I knew, but magnesium eh? if I’d known that I might have given it a go specifically, being the anxious little ferret that I am!
- ch 14 - things that worked for me. I loved the honesty in this. Some things work and others don’t for all of us and that’s ok and it’s nice to see written in a page as a reminder. Claire once recommended that I try yoga and I’ve done it occasionally but I mostly put it on now to watch the dog in it whatever works for you is ok - go for it!

Bee Kind, Bee Brave, Bee Sober