My Not So Secret Diary

It’s my birthday!!

My birthday
Today is my birthday! I’m not telling you for any other reason than I’m proud of myself for how far I’ve come. What I mean is a few years ago I would have seen my birthday as a reason to have a drink (although not this early in the day). Like many other celebrations, they seem to be intertwined with alcohol for a lot of us.

Today is different. I know I won’t have a drink today. I don’t have to think about whether I will or I won’t. I don’t have to have an argument with myself over how much I’ll drink. I won’t have to worry whether I’ll have one too many. I won’t wake up tomorrow with a headache. (Well I might, but it won’t be alcohol related). I will more than likely remember everything that happens today.

It’s a relief. I never in a million years thought I’d be able to say that, as someone who relied on wine for all the ‘good times’, not to have to even think about it is lovely.

I’ve always thought the simple things matter more than anything. So today, is about me and my family, well after I finish work at least. I don’t need anything else, and that is a really good feeling.

Have a lovely day!

Much love,
Claire xx