26 October. 2022
This is amazing!
I know from personal experience how powerful it is and I’ve seen it work with my own eyes. I hope the study is successful and it is rolled out far and wide
24 October. 2022
A rare but lovely occasion. All of us managed to get out together for lunch over the weekend. Such a small thing, but it means the world to me.
23 October. 2022
My sober Saturday consisted of a clear headed early morning wander at a reclamation yard, looking for new to us but old doors to breathe some love back info our new home and a hot chocolate on the way home.
17 October. 2022
I put off moving for a long time. I’d become very attached to our home, and it worked for us, but it was also my safe place. It was never meant to be our forever home, but after 21 years, it seemed unlikely that we’d move. I suppose I didn’t think I deserved any more than I had, and I felt like we had enough. But once the seed was planted, it was hard not to think about it. I left a lot of the details to my husband, my parents haven’t been that well this year and it’s been enough to think about them without thinking of everything else, so I suppose it has happened around me, but now, it’s very real and we’re living in our new home.
I fell in love with our new home the moment I saw it. It wasn’t perfect, but once I’d seen it, I knew it was right, and I believed if we were meant to have it, things would work out. What I hadn’t expected was the change it would make to me personally; it’s a fresh start both physically and mentally. I’m not saying everyone should move house to move on with their lives, but I honestly feel like I left a lot of baggage behind. I feel like I am able to change not necessarily who I was, but how I allow myself to be seen. I feel like I can leave behind all the bits of me that I wasn’t that keen on, and allow myself a fresh canvas.
You know, I haven’t once thought about pouring a drink in the evening since we’ve been here. Maybe that’s because I’ve never had a drink in this house? I feel, and I’m not the only one, that we’re completely ourselves here too. We’ve wondered if we should have done this years ago, but I can honestly say I’m glad we didn’t because it means we can fully appreciate it now. I feel like we’re exactly where we’re meant to be, and for that, I’m very grateful.
13 October. 2022
Oh internet, how I have missed you… two weeks into our move and we’ve finally had broadband connected so we can do more than just run off our phones. Who knew a family could use so much data! I haven’t got the TV connected yet, but surprisingly I don’t really miss it like I thought I would. The internet however is a different story. I guess it’s more than just a connection to others, we’ve become so reliant on it for emails, banking, even our shopping lists… but now it’s back and I’m reliably connected again. Normal service might resume!
12 October. 2022
Making time for moments like these in my life is special. No rush to get home or preoccupation with when I’ll get a glass of wine, just fun, happy moments, although I’m not sure who exactly was walking who… Also have you got any idea how hard it is to do a selfie with a dog and a five year old when they’re out for a walk?
11 October. 2022
If I’m honest, you could say that I’m not great with change. My husband calls me a creature of habit, but I do like my routines. I like the idea of doing something new, but actually doing it can be another story entirely. I might plan something with the best of intentions, but then, reality sets in and I find it hard to make whatever it is a reality. I’m like this with the most normal of things; like going on an evening out, or doing something a little bit out of the ordinary. Much as I love my safe space, I hate the way I end up feeling, and I only have myself to blame as I create my self imposed boundaries.
At the beginning of the year we talked about moving. For someone who doesn’t like change, this was the ultimate challenge. Suddenly everything was up in the air and unknown as we’ve never moved before. We bought our last house 21 years ago, and spent our time making it our home. It became an integral part of our family, and yet, it seemed for all of us that it was time to move on. At times I wanted to stop, to go back to the safety and normality of what I knew, but something made me push through.
We’ve been in our new home for two weeks now. It’s a project and we’re living out of boxes with three of us sleeping in the dining room while the older kids have the bedrooms, but it’s beautiful and it has so much potential. It’ll be a long time until it’s finished, as it’s been a little forgotten and unloved, but it’s a blank canvas and it feels like home already. I was terrified that we might make the wrong decision, it’s not like you can try before you buy with a house, and I was worried I might regret the move, but so far, it’s all we could have asked for.
I’m glad I trusted that things would work out, this sort of project is not something I would have undertaken a few years back, and I am so grateful to be where I am now. I’m excited, not overwhelmed, and I have to say, I get so much done in the evenings because I’m sober. It’s a win win!!
09 October. 2022
I have a new found gratitude for the simple things. Apples picked from our trees, making a crumble with my littlest, everyone enjoying it… Then the town carnival where his school came first for their scarecrow float. Such a lovely day!
02 October. 2022
My little helper… shopping should always be this fun!