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The Simple Things

The Simple ThingsIt was our littlest one’s birthday today. He was four today, and I haven’t had a drink since I found out I was pregnant with him. Life has been different since he joined us, lovely, busy, wonderful, but most of all, peaceful.


It was funny this evening, but it really hit me how much things have changed for me. I mean, I have had other sober birthdays since I stopped drinking, both mine and our other kiddies, but tonight there was something notably different. Lee and I were both at work today, but he came home at a normal time, which is a rare occurrence, so we could have the evening together. After dinner, we sat at the table and played Stanley’s new Hungry Hippos game; we’d already built a Hogwarts Castle from Lego, and had been outside to try out his new skateboard. It was all so simple, but so special.

Before, I would have associated birthdays and any other special occasion with a reason to have a drink, but tonight, I wasn’t in a rush to get through things so I could have another glass of wine. I was patient, relaxed and entirely present. It’s also lovely to think that tomorrow, and in the future, I’ll remember it all, it won’t be a blurry memory.

I feel so lucky at times like this to have so much in my life to be grateful for. I’ve worked for it, but it was so very worth it.

Have a lovely evening!
Claire xx